Monday, February 25, 2008

I'm Ready

Right now we're renting a house pretty far away from everyone. It's a nice house in the country's pretty far away from everyone. Kasey has to drive an hour to get to work, I have to drive an hour to get to Ray's school and to my family's house. It's just not practical to live out there so we want to move closer. Renting houses out here is crazy, it just doesn't happen unless you have tons of money.

I found a house that I want. It's a foreclosure so who knows what kind of condition it's in but it's 4 bedroom 2.5 bath and 2 stories. I really want this house but I know the market sucks right now for buying houses. The one thing going for us is the VA loan. *sigh*

Please cross your fingers, say prayers something that this works out because I really want my own house. It's time to grow up and be an adult.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Random Ramblings

Sorry it's been so long. I'm really going to try to blog at least once or twice a week.

Here are some questions for the night. Why do people get married? Why do people stay married even when they're not happy? Do you really think that people who get married at 19, 20 will stay married forever? Why does society these days make divorce as acceptable as it is?

Yeah I know these are deep thoughts and focused on marriage but someone asked me the question "Why do people get married" and the best answer I had was "Because they love each other." How's that for a deep response? Seriously though...why is marriage so important? If you love each other and have a commitment to each other, why is that certain piece of paper so important?

I know why. There's just something special about saying "my husband" or "my wife". There's something sacred about the love between two people who really love each other. There's something awesome about the feeling of pure contentment, knowing that this person loves you enough to want to be with you for the rest of his life.

I know I love K. I know that I can live without him but the main thing is that I don't want to live without him. I don't like being away from him. I don't want him to work over nights and off shore or go on deployments. It's not okay for me. I put up with being a military wife for almost 5 years and I won't do it again. I won't be a single married mom again.

I know K loves me and wants to spend the rest of his life with me. I just think we're both shy. We're both scared that things could go wrong but sometimes in life you can't shy away. You can't be afraid, you have to take chances so maybe soon we'll both jump.