Thursday, September 18, 2008

Sorry to Vent

I know it seems like all I ever do is vent but I have nowhere else to vent.

I have been in Austin since Ike hit and there is no power whatsoever. I have felt like a burden and like I've been annoying everyone here since I got here. I've been doing my best to keep the boys in line and under control and not have them under everyone's feet. We've been going non stop since Monday or Tuesday and quite frankly I'm exhausted. I know, though, that keeping them out of the house is the best because they run energy out and they don't tear the house apart.

Today we were gone all day but somehow Zach managed to get into the toilet paper and unroll some in my aunt's and uncle's bedroom. Instead of throwing the toilet paper away my uncle comes out and says
"You have to keep an eye on him. Your grandma can't chase him around all day, you have to watch him. It's not fair for her to have to do all of it." I sat there in shock and said "We haven't been home all day. We've been gone. I don't know when he would have done that" and he kept going on and on and on telling me how I had to watch him and not let him run around and I can't let Grandma do all of the work.

I'm in tears right now. I just feel like I've been attacked. I've done my best to keep them all entertained and not put anyone out and then this happens. She hasn't been watching him, I have. The ONLY time she's gone after him is if I'm busy or if she's already up and she goes to get him.

I think I'm going somewhere this weekend. Not sure where, but just away from here. I'm tired of being made to feel as if I'm a burden.