Monday, September 29, 2008

School Stuff

I know that my last blog was cryptic but I really didn't want to write more than I did.

I've been second guessing myself on a lot of things lately and it's been stressing the hell out of me. On Friday I was afraid that I wasn't going to be able to cut it in Anatomy and that I was doing the wrong thing. I worry every day that I am doing the wrong thing and that I'm somehow ruining my kids. I worry when I shouldn't and I feel as if I'm always worrying.

I took my first test in Anatomy on Friday and I didn't do too horribly bad. I got a 75 which sucks for me because it's not an A or B but it's a 75 and better than most of the other people in the class. With that grade and 2 crappy quiz grades dropped I have an 83 in there. It's not good enough and that sucks. I'm wondering if I'll be able to pull an A or at least a high B so maybe she'll bump it up to an A. I NEED this A otherwise I will retake Anatomy 1 until I get that A. I really don't want to do that. No I'm not being melodramatic or putting too much pressure on myself. In order to get into this nursing program, you have to have a total of 12 points. The 12 points come from different things, including 4 at most from a test you take. They only want to accept 50 people out of 500 that apply. That's 50 people...only 50, and most of those people have A's in Anatomy and didn't jack around and screw up. I don't have the time or money to screw up so I am putting tons of pressure on myself.

In other news...I have an A+ in psychology. I received a 97 on my first test in there. Woohoo go me! Tomorrow we turn a paper into English and start another one.

Things are going and I'm going to do this. I had a minor freak out over the weekend but I'm back to normal now. I will be okay and I will succeed. I have no choice and I will not accept anything other than success.